Happy Birthday to me:):)

I had an awesome birthday!! :) Thank you sooo much all of you (Divi, Sv, Reeni, Vini, Moni, Arthi, DP, Aishu, Alagiri, CP, Ila, Gopi ) for making it an awesome day.Starting from the cake, the candle singing the birthday song , room decorated with photos and filled with baloons, the kutti kutti gifts,and the various surprises, temple and breakfast in the morning, lunch at myplace and a walk in the race course with ila, gopi, sudharsan, divi and alagiri, the never ending photography sessions with our tireless photographer and gopi's potrait pictures for "Manamagal thevai". The amazing cute and thoughtful gifts by them.
Thanks all for making it a happy 21:):) 

That one person!

People say vent out your feelings and you would feel light.I never understood what it really meant till yesterday.I had been frustrated with a lot of things in recent.I feel everything around me has been wrong and has been happening without a proper reason.And there has been noone to question all this, because all of us are scared of the consequences.Why are we such chickens, why don't we talk what we feel.It is a democratic country and I have all the right to talk what I want.But coming to think of it we are not in a democratic country, its all dictatorship.Why do we have higher authorities?? Are they appointed to scare everyone and be reluctant to listen to what we want or think?? Absolutely not!!If you are not able to take up a responsibility, please do not take it.If you think its really cool to take up a big responsibility, please understand you are wasting other people's time.People want you to monitor and address our grievances and not increase or run away from them.
Also if someone thought being unstable denotes the ability to change and accept, then again don't test it against others cos we are not your guinea pigs.Try it on yourself instead of wasting our time and resources.
So with all this anger and few more other unexpressed feelings, I entered a room and found this usually unavailable busy person sitting in his place facing his system.I told a thanks to god for making this person available.I went in, after a minute or two of nice pleasant talk, I just vented out all that I had in my mind, all that we thought we could only crib and not take it any higher, I still do not know why I talked so openly about everything even without a second thought, prolly its all the emotion and anger mixed together that resulted in this outburst. How long can we complain, how long can we just shut our mouth, how long can we do what we are asked to without questioning back.There is a limit to all that.
I have no clue what would be the result of this outburst but all I'm happy about is I could atleast tell it out and shout at the world the way I always desired to.Atleast one day I was able to break open my shell and cry out.
After all this, there was a minute when I thought prolly I made a mistake by talking it all out, but all this regret got washed away when the person who was so choicelessly listening to me for such a long time gave a reassuring smile and shook hands telling that I had told nothing wrong and had not hurt anyone with my words and I had all the right to talk what I feel and that he appreciated people around and under him talk out what they feel instead of being diplomatic always.
And that was the time I felt so lucky to have been in this place to know this man and also to have the opportunity to talk to him whenever I felt like and that there can be no replacement to this one person ever in my life.He is a wonderful, person, a teacher and of all the best leader!!

:):)

WOW!!! Its so nice to be back home!! :):) Awesome food, sleep, food, TV, food....Have not stepped out of my house, have just been flipping through the channels..Its nice to be home after one irritating and an un-understandable week. Nowadays, I'm frustrated not because I don't like doing things but instead I do not know why I'm doing those things!! Its damn irritating I say when you really need to do some things just for the heck of it without a convincing reason.Whoever thought these assignments were cool, should go smut their heads. While complaining to my parents about this, guess what my grandfather had to say, "I think you should address it in the union!!" I was like Union???? Do we really have one..When I told him there are no such things for us, he said..you guys are so useless,,when I was young we used to bring the college down if such baseless rules came up..and I was like "yeah right", after running the consequences in my mind.

Forgetting all that, the week ahead is gonna be terrible too..but I'm so excited about the Goa trip which we do not know if it would happen..All fingers crossed..Lets see:):)
Presently just viewing some random clicks by some random photographer..and its awesome!! :):)
  http://www.flickr.com/photos/ajaymenon/2384022473/in/photostream/ 

A Strict No to a lot of things!

Okay, what has this world come to? Why do people talk as if they are brothers and sisters of Socrates? Why do people not realise that they literally know nothing, I mean NOTHING when they say things like, “this is what even I thought “or “this is what even I meant” when they spoke about water when fire was the subject of discussion. Actually these people are making a fool of themselves, prolly for the first time when they mention these things you would appreciate but later you would just laugh at their stupidity and ignorance.


And for people who think the world looks at you and yearns to be you, stop imagining, no one wants to be like another person cos everyone has their own identity and no one wants to be you. For all you know they are just looking at you to tell themselves that they do not want to be you and they do not want to behave like you.

There are few other things I really hate, not accepting that you were wrong but always arguing that you are right even when it is not any interview. Next, not accepting that you do not know anything but behaving like Socrates as I said before.Unneccessarily questioning people for no known mistake of the one questioned, just to show that they exist. And talking about the few things that you follow when that has absolutely no effect on you or probably it just made you worse in every aspect. Then talking about the same thing over and over again when the person who is listening has to keep nodding or something as bad as smiling for a joke even before telling cos they know its coming.

All I think is Accept and Let go, cos you need not prove to anyone, it’s enough if you satisfy yourselves, don’t behave or act to get attention. But yes, dressing and body language and few other things we do is for the society cos we don’t want them to think of us as indifferent. If you think everyone behaves cos it’s because of their character, all I would like to say is it’s not the character but the level of acceptance and adaptation in each one of us that decides what we are and our character. I digested this piece of advice long back, but its just that its difficult to follow or use it in my life.

Bye 2010!!

Had a great end to a great year in the hostel, a year that was filled with activities, happiness, satisfaction, nostalgia, a belief that we are worth something. I remember Jan 1 2010, started with a prayer that all of us should get an internship in the best companies. With all the full-fledged preparations, and tension we had our mock interviews to face, which I have no right to comment on but with a belief that we did it well, we carried on our hopes to the next level of internship interviews which started on, if I vaguely remember, on Feb 22. With a lot of companies coming to the college, the belief increased that we all would get placed. But what really we never understood was; it is not a running race that we need to rush like that to sit for a company and we can analyse if we would really suit in that place and environment. All we did was frown, cry and get irritated just because we didn’t get a company, and we all blamed it on luck and things like that. We never accepted and let that go. Life is just not that. But we did realise all this, after going into the company, some felt the decisions that they made were right, some felt it was worth the wait, some adjusted, some thought it just happened for a reason no matter what!


But definitely, I would like to generalize, that all of us had a nice internship, we did learn a lot and experience a lot and learnt to live our own lives. When we came back, we came back with a lot of wisdom.

The 8th semester as such is going smooth. There is some kind of unity among us. Though it is difficult to sit in class forever with no coffee and a small manga break, getting used to all this has also become a part of our learning sessions. It’s nice to be back in the college and hostel .It’s like we are arrested for having unbounded fun for six months: P : P. But anyway hope we all have a happy and a memorable 2011 , the last year or last few months in our very own college .By the end of this year, we all would be loaded with responsibilities, and a feeling that we all should no more bank on others but live our lives, all we would be taking from this place are memories of this wonderful place that gave us the sense of belonging and an identity that we would be carrying with us throughout our lives. Sounds nostalgic already, doesn’t it? Hope everyday in this year reminds us of something fresh and nostalgic and the yearning to relive when we look back.

Happy New Year to all of you :) :)