Im in Love!!

With a whole lot of people around me....there are alot of ppl to whom i have never told how much i love them and how much they mean to me..many of them have not stayed long..but in that small span of time they made my world,they made me feel they are the best i could ever get..this post is dedicated to all those people who have in some way or the other influenced my life..
Starting from sowmya ,i don't remember how we became friends..all i remember is the endless phone calls we made to each other everyday,we used to talk the same things at times but still it just didnt matter..she was my closest friend then..I'm so thankful to her cos she was the one who introduced me to one new world ,the world of reading books,if alone she had not been there i would have missed something big in my life..not everyone gets a friend like her..Everytime i go to that library, i conspicuously remember only her...Next being manisha and ashok,my high school friends...the real meaning of fun i learnt only from them..especially manisha,no matter how many times we got screwed at home,with the same determination we would go back doing the same..i learnt how to be and how not to be from them..they made my high school days as colourful as it looks to me...and then pv and kk , probably i got to know them well only after school and before joining college..but they have been my bestest frens,who have always been there when i wanted...I always love talking to kk though we disagree with each other on every small issue ,its always been fun talking to him..one person with whom i can argue about anything under the sky..its again not easy to find people who will have knowledge on eveything you wanna talk about..and then PV...dont know wat i would do without him..i love him so much...he is the one person who would always give his shoulders just when you need them..
And then i go to college,again i meet a bunch of wonderful people..though it took a long time for me to understand people,,but still i found people who have changed my life in college..let me start with divya...alot of them call us sisters..but definitely we are not,have people seen sisters not fight,,one day when i was plumbing the depths of my memory,i realised we have not fought at all...its really impossible for sudha not to fight with anyone..we have had alot of difference in opinions..but never have we shown faces to each other..never have we fought for personal issues..prolly out of tension we would have raised our voice against each other..but personally a big NO....i have never told her how much i love her though she has told me so many lovey dovey things,the only reason being i never could define the amount of love i have had for her..
Then comes my vini..i have always wondered how would it be to have a sister,and if i had had one she would  have definitely been like vinitha..as fiery,as loud ,as restless as me and also has a biiig mouth to go with a small physique jus like me...i dont love her..i admire her...i admire her cos she is so brave ,she is intelligent,she is sooo compassionate,and she never loses her individuality,and a  minute you feel down she would be the one who would come running no matter wat state she is in..i have always loved talking to her, the feeling you get after talking to her is similar to the way you feel after drinking a choco drink..
And then.. reeni..probably the first person to whom i spoke to,no no the first person who spoke to me in college..god i hated her and i had million reasons that made me not like her and now i know i was so wrong...a girl with a big smile..who smiles no matter wat,who never gets angry which is something i admire the most cos i get angry atleast 5 times a day..thank god she was my roomie, i should apologise a million times to her for the way i have tortured her with my mood swings.. she would never show faces but would jus move away from that place silently and again would come bak and talk to me as if nothing just happened:)
Another different kind of person whom i treasure is DP..a person who has almost the same likes dislikes as me..whenever i am happy after a movie or a song or a serial or a dance..the first thing i would do is ,call her and tell..cos both of us look at art from the same perspective..and she would react to and criticise things just the way i would ..i remember the first day at college how happy i was to see her in the same class as me..
And then comes ila..prolly we became frens only recently,,but i have always loved going out with him..a person whom im so thankful for his open comments and for his tolerance to come out with me at any time of the day to anywhere..a person who always has done whatever i have asked him,.
And then the first guy whom i ever spoke to in college..CP..he has advised me at right times..though we have not opened personal books to each other..I have always looked for his support encouragement at every point,they have always meant alot to me..he gets a special place in the friend list along with all others i have mentioned...
And it wouldn be fair on my part if i didnt mention viswa..actually i thought i wouldn write his name..cos im totally lost for words for him..I actually dont know how to tell him i love him cos half the time i have only yelled at him..probably because i like him soooo much that i really am lost for words..one truly amazing idiot he is...viswa i really like you so much and you have been such an amazing friend and a brother....
and last but not the least..dunno if i should mention him here..its santosh ,we have come a long way..we have been really great friends..all i can think of to write about him..is nothing..i jus feel like smiling and telling him thanks alot..have learnt the real meaning of love,faith and trust and lots more...
Im soooo happy to have got you guys in my life...i just felt like writing this post cos i have never told how much i have loved or missed you guys when you weren around...All I would like to say is..Im soo Lucky :) :)

Disappointment!!

It might sound really weird (not for all) if i say college life is disappointing..I don't know what i thought college life would be when i entered,but i knew what i didn't want as a college life.I was not a freak or ,anything close to being cool at school, i was a big time stud bomb but still i had a lot of dreams about how my time in college would be.In fact I studied hard in school,thinking those were the last days of studying and i never knew it was just the starting. I blame it all on the movies,No college is similar to what they show on TV's or cinemas.Its not like you can go anytime to class and get away from standing out just because you came late.You can't throw rockets in class at faculties,You can't bunk college indefinitely,failing in exams was definitely not cool,things like HOMEWORK still exist and there are faculties who check :O ,can't go to labs at your will,the door is closed even if you are one minute late, suspension for mass bunking, there are no benches or lawn for ppl to sit ,you still have to wear an ID card, if someone thought talking on phones while faculties teach is really amusing,FYI you would be thrown out even if you look at your mobile.And yes you can't even whisper while they teach,if you do you surely are failing that semester or you get low grades..There are the frontbenchers who try relentlessly to impress the faculties to get marks and yet claim they are really cool and they don't give a damn to marks :P..There is no such thing called as cultural s,only then think about hooting or whistling :P Ragging..what a joke!!!Actually our dress code is better ,cos we are just asked to wear duppattas,there are colleges which asks them to pin it :P Girls and guys cant dance or go on stage together...All the more terrible are the hostel rules..girls need to be back by 6.30, you can be out only for five hours during weekend cos girls might run away if the rules are relaxed !!but WHY?????Wont i run away even in 5 minutes, why do i need 5 hours???Parents should call and tell the reason even if i have to go home, reasons like going home is not valid,they need a reason for why i want to go home.. Damn it,its my house and i want to go..why the hell are you asking...you cant make noise after 9 in the night,,its called SILENCE HOURS and we might be disturbing people who are studying..ya right!!You cant watch TV after 10 even if there is a cricket match or OSCARS or anything at all,at 10 the TV is switched off and remote is taken away...You cant celebrate birthdays,you cant watch movies,you cant have cameras,,,,,what only can I do????
By the time you get used to all these things and tell yourself that I am ready to adjust and I'll definitely put up with everything...you are in your final year,and it is time to say bye bye,,,
All these might sound really trivial,but first day at college when you are introduced to all these things, i remember my eyes welled up,,now it all looks funny and i really have stopped caring about these things..but when you have just passed out of school and you are expecting  colorful years ahead all you get is a black and white image that tells you "STOP DREAMING"..In the end its how you want to see it and take it..All this might sound easier if only your aims and desires and perspective were different..But for me it was really a tough time..
Immaterial of all this i have had fun,but this is how it would have been if i had posted it in my first few months in college...
PS: The directors of movies like happy days,kadhal desam and all the happy college days movies ,are either people who wouldn't have been to college or are people who are disappointed like me and wanted to live it through movies and deceive the young kids..

This ees Life :)

Time has changed!! So many changes around me..parents react easily to things which they made it seem as a big issue before ..or probably i should say we are all growing old :(...Anyway its a good change :)
Im gonna list all those things(whatever i remember) that have changed!!
Appo(when i was in school),getting up at 7:30 was a BIG SIN, I remember my mom yelling from the kitchen "Nee enna pana poriyo!!" and i was left with no choice but to get up.And now she makes sure my bedroom is closed so that even an insect cant disturb me and doesn't wake me up even if its 10,and if  I get up at 8 thinking that she is gonna kill me for this..she would say "Enna??got up so soon!!innum konjam rest edu!!"
Before, going out during weekends was considered waste of time and my parents always thought i could use it for studying!!...You get the permission only if you had asked 2 weeks in prior and u need to stick to conditions like coming back by 3!!and they would send the only mobile phone at home with me so that they can keep calling and asking "Where are you!!vittuku vara idea irruka??"
But now,staying home on weekends has become like a favor to them!!They never call me even if I'm late,probably my dad would call and ask "do you want me to come and pick you up?would you be back home safe?Do you want mom to cook food for you??",which makes you feel guilty when you are expecting an angry mom or dad calling!!
Before!! "amma oru 50 rupees venum" (very obediently) ..for that my mom would be like "Wat are you gonna do with so much money??" :O and I also would promptly tell all that i would do with that FIFTY RUPEES :)
Now she gives me in hundreds each time i go out and insists me on taking the card :P
I used to be so scared to ask even small things..starting from those kutti elle18 nail polishes,a barbie doll or even a board game,they used to promise me such gifts only if i get a centum in all the subjects in the whatever exam that followed knowing it was next to impossible (not that i was a buddhu :P)
Now do we even care to ask our parents, don't we right away walk to the shops and get them!! But one thing which i definitely need to be happy about is unlike most of the parents,my parents never forced me to study!!
These are the few things out of a big list which i remembered  that have changed hugely for me..
But I'm sure if my parents had not reacted that way before,I would have gone nowhere,kettu kutti suvarudhan..And if they reacted the same way even now,again kettu kutti suvarudhan!!
Aren't we all thankful to our parents who have brought us up so well and have treated us depending on our age and have given us the freedom of thought and expression at the right times!!
This post is to thank my parents and wishing them a HAPPY 26th WEDDING ANNIVERSARY!! :)